Money Can't Buy Happiness

The other day I was droning on and on and on and on ( you get the idea) about how happy I would be once I finally get a million dollars. My husband looked at me and said, "You won't be happy even once you get a million dollars."

At first, I was pissed. I felt insulted, hurt and annoyed that he believed that a million dollars would not make me happy because come on, it's a million dollars. Who wouldn't be happy with a million dollars. Then, I thought about it. As much as it sickens me, I think he is right.

All too often I focus on happiness as something I'll have in the future.

I used to say, once I lose 40 pounds I'll be happy. Then, I lost 40 pounds and you know what? I still wasn't happy.

I used to say, once I am married I'll be happy. I've been married for 6 years and you know what? As much as I love my husband with every fiber of my being I'm still not happy.

I used to say, once I get out of high school and away from all the people who bully me I'll be happy. I've been out of school for 10 years as of this year and I'm still not happy.

What does all this tell me? It's not the things going on in my life, the things that will come into my life or even the people in my life holding me back from being happy. The only thing that has been constant is me. I'm the only one holding myself back from happiness.

So, with all this said, I think I need to just focus on being happy regardless of my environment. I'm the only REAL thing in my way of happiness. I need to commit 100% to being happy overall. Right now!

I Want More Positivity in My Life

Too often it seems I am focusing on the bad things in my life. The bills I can't pay, the money I haven't made, the jobs I've not gotten, the tasks I've not yet completed. I'm sick of all that crap. I want more positivity in my life. There are so many awesome things that happen to me all the time and I think it's high time I focus on those things.

This morning I woke up. That alone is huge. I woke up and was able to breathe, sit up, stand up and walk into my living room under a roof to shelter me from the outside and say good morning to my husband who I love and that loves me. I was able to get a diet fountain soda and cook breakfast with him. I spent my day goofing off on facebook and pinterest and then indulged in freshly baked cupcakes and a glorious 3 hour nap and then awoke to another fountain soda. Then, I got to make a delicious quesadilla, had more cupcakes, enjoyed a couple of cocktails, crafted for a while and then watched some movies. I'm so lucky to be able to enjoy everything I enjoyed today.

I focus waaaaaaay too often on the things I don't have, but sitting here for these few minutes looking at everything I DO have was really nice. Thank you for my awesome luxuries and the many things in my life that I got to enjoy today. Thank you for my wonderful husband, my delicious breakfast, my glorious nap, my amazing cupcakes, my time enjoyed watching movies and my yummy dinner. Thank you for everything positive in my life.

I'm Worthy Of Great Things

I am worthy of wonderful things coming into my life. I am worthy of happiness and great experiences and amazing adventures. I am good enough. I am amazing. I am fun. I am lovable. I am worthy of being rich. I am worth of being loved. I am worth it. I am an awesome chick.

Chapter 2 Life Lesson #2 Exercise: Mastering LOA

 

I said HERE that I was going to do the exercises from the book  Life Lessons for Mastering the Law of Attraction and, so, here is the exercise from Chapter 2, Life Lesson Life Lesson #2 which is "Breakthroughs Don't Have to be Hard":

What are your life-defining moments (pick 10)? (still need to do this part: Next, identify those thoughts and practices that served you in each instance)
1. Meeting and marrying Jeremy
2. Going to USF
3. Changing my major from education to mass communications
4. Traveling to the Caribbean
5. Getting fired for the first time
6. Starting Tampa Bay Freebies
7. Starting to call myself The Famous Ashley Grant
8. Moving out on my own before getting married
9. Getting hired by About.com
10. Dumping my ex

 

Affirmation 9/9/12

My affirmation for 9/9/12:

- I will find a way to get debt free
- I will find a way to pay off my parents' debts
- I will get my mom ready to retire
- I will be able to retire too

What Do I Really Want

What do I really want? I want security, stability, enough money to pay off all debts and then travel the world...

 

I want to share my travels with the world. I want to take photos of everything I eat, see and do and then share my experiences with anyone that wants to see them.

 

I want every day to be an adventure. I want to have fun and feel like every day I did something amazing.

 

I want to help my family be more positive and help them keep their home and have their dreams come true.

 

I want to be happy and to feel happy. I want to be loved. I want to feel love and share love.

 

I want to have fun with people and enjoy their company while they enjoy mine.

 

What makes me happiest is when I am hanging out with people and enjoying time with them. I love eating good food, drinking yummy drinks and talking about stuff. I like dancing and singing and crafting and building things. I love new experiences and adventures. I love telling the stories of things I've done and the things I will do. What I really want is to be able to do these things every day for the rest of my life.